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(no subject) [Sep. 7th, 2008|05:39 pm]
pasdefin
How do we come back from this, or can we?

I suspect we can, because I seem to remember similarly right-now-its-dire events taking place and bouncing back just fine. Nonetheless, the details on those situations past are so fuzzy that I'm honestly unsure of whether they really happened.

Also, what do I do at this point? What is my role now? I feel like I've made an effort to mend the situation, but is it just a band aid on a bullet hole? That is, was my contribution even worthwhile or merely irksome? And how do I make things better?

...Especially considering the fact that I was a contributor to the original bullet wound.

I'll think this over tonight by going on a run. Or maybe my run will just numb my thoughts into submission -- either suits me, for sure.
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2008|07:53 pm]
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Wolf Blitzer is staring directly into the camera without speaking as he listens to Rev. Jesse Jackson on a loudspeaker in the studio (phone-in).

My TV is on mute, however, so I looked up to see Wolf Blitzer staring sternly into the camera in silence.

And I damn near wet my pants.
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(no subject) [May. 24th, 2008|01:13 pm]
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I've determined that except for late at night, when the Y is closed or closing, the only time of day that I have time to run is before I wake up.

So, I need a clocky. In the meantime, I may just steal an alarm clock from Kirsti and set it up on the other side of my bedroom. This means I'll also need to start sleeping with my door closed, likely.

I have also been thinking about what else I can do to better motivate me to run. Maybe switch out the shitty coffeemaker in the kitchen for the one in my trunk with a timer. That way, 5 minutes before my alarm goes off, I can have coffee waiting and ready.

So here's a short list:
- Sign up for the Rock and Roll Half Marathon. Once I throw down that cash, that's it. I'm in, and I can't throw that away.
- Start signing up for shorter distance races and runs between now and then.
- Make a Wall of Motivation (or maybe just a corkboard of motivation) with stories and pictures that make me want to get out and do it.
- Start a running blog. List my run, time/distance and how it went each day. Celeste, maybe we can do this together. I'm thinking something like "Run Reeree Run" or "Team Reeree" or something of that sort.

On that note, I haven't gotten a run in in a few days. Yesterday, the closest I got was a 30 minute brisk walk with Lucy around the neighborhood. I figured that I probably wouldn't get a run in, but that a walk was better than nothing.

Today, I'll make it in before the Y closes at 6. Promise.


Oh oh! My parents adopted a second dog: Snickers. She's an 11 month-old Beagle girl that had to be given up by her owners. Lucy and Snick are having some trouble figuring out their spots in the pack, but hopefully that'll work itself out. My mom's been doing research about how to act toward each dog (which one you want to be the dominant one and the other the submissive) and get them to realize their positions in the line.
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(no subject) [Mar. 5th, 2008|02:44 pm]
pasdefin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gncW1zqMFgs&feature=related


ObamaGirl ain't got shit on the Putin bitches.
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(no subject) [Feb. 6th, 2008|03:13 pm]
pasdefin
I am on the verge of a serious freakout.

I literally bit all of my fingernails down to nubs. Ohgodohgodohgod.
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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2007|10:59 pm]
pasdefin
So, I'm done with the State Press for the semester.

I don't regret it -- for all the work I was doing, they weren't running my clips.

Alas, I feel so much less stressed now. I can work on my schoolwork, too.

I'm working on my anxiety on my own. Especially trying to work on the fact that I'm a jealous person. I'm trying to take a step back, breathe, and evaluate why I feel the things I do and then try to debunk them. If I can build a habit of it, I should do well... at least with the jealousy.
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(no subject) [Sep. 11th, 2007|09:04 pm]
pasdefin
I need to do my homework.
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2007|09:52 am]
pasdefin
I've blown off my pos 210 class twice this week. I am an ass.

Today, I have sexual behavior and the newsroom for some cop shop writing. Then I will come home, likely make more coffee (after 9 hours of sleep, I'm exhausted) and get to studying.

Tomorrow there's a brainstorming meeting for the NMIL and then I've got a football game at Westwood at 7. And... I have no idea how I'm going to get in. I don't have an AIA pass yet and if they want me to pay, good luck: my account is over drawn.

Time to go to school.
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